Being a preterm ruptured membrane patient (water broke earlier then normal), I do not wish for anyone to have to go through with this because you are stuck in the hospital, being poked so many times, dealing with some crazy nurses like this one named Jill, having many tests done, enduring pain, and taking so many medications while being on bed rest! I may be a wimp...but trust me its ruff however I am SO excited to meet Miss Paisley Makae and love on her that in the end it makes it all worth it. The ruff times are like when I hear Adey is having a hard time and I am not their for her or not getting to spend all day every day with her or I ache when she says "I want to stay with you in the hospital mommy" or "mommy come home and snuggle with me"...I mean just melts my heart! I miss playing pet shops or barbies with her, I miss snuggles with her at night, I miss watching My Little Pony with her, I miss her helping me cook in the kitchen, I miss painting our toes, I miss going swimming with her, I miss reading books together..I owe her a VERY special mommy/daughter date when I am released and Paisley is here and doing well. I watch my husband go to work, sleep on an uncomfy couch by my side, take me on wheel chair rides, spend time with our daughter, constantly be driving everywhere, eating hospital food so he doesn't have to leave me...he is an amazing man. I love him so much and I look at our current situation and am so grateful he is in my life! He is such a big help and I know in within the next year when EVERYTHING has calmed down from hospital/Paisley's birth to school/graduation to moving/career to whatever else is thrown our way...I will find a special way to show my gratitude. As for Oskar...I sure miss his snuggles, giving me kisses, petting his soft fur, keeping me warm at night, and his love/companionship. So being in the hospital (for the third time with this pregnancy since 26 weeks and was admitted at 31 weeks and 4 days) has overall not been easy for any of us. But what has helped me is thinking of things that I DO appreciate. For example: I do appreciate those that have to visit me or called me or sent me sweet texts at the right time, I do appreciate Doctor Sok for her encouraging words and dedication to be there for Paisley's arrival, I do appreciate the packages from friends with sweet presents for Paisley, I do appreciate my three favorite nurses who both happen to work at night time Allie, Nona, and Nette (they are wonderful...both are so talkative and sweet and gentle and let me sleep at night or go a little longer before waking me for vitals), I do appreciate modern medicine and what they have done to help make sure Paisley will be strong and ready when she makes her grand entrance, I do appreciate the weekend cafeteria person for bringing me WHATEVER I wanted, and lastly I do appreciate family that have been helping us get through this tuff time...especially my dad for booking my mom's ticket and then having to change it at last minute and paying the difference just so my mom could be here with me and for her son in law and granddaughter!
a few of the physical things that have made me smile are the giraffe flowers are from Adey and the orchids are from the Hastons (Josh's sisters' family) These both sure helped make my day yesterday. Then today my mom got me some new slippers and the 2nd hunger games book...I sure am taken care of!
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